seeing pink

quarry lakes and kristel's cotillion

morning (afternoon) waking up after kristel's cotillion. except for the outfits, altogether better than prom. didn't get home until two in the morning, which was after many failed attempts to find a fast food place open at 1am. in-n-out closed at 1:30 and we got there at 1:33. we begged someone to open the door and offered to dance the cha-cha for food. no go. went home and made a quesadilla.

what else i did this past week in no particular order: got lost in fremont, learned the art of t-shirt shredding, made spanakopita, visited alejandro at work, tanned my feet among other things, painted my toes pink, and ran in heels.

getting a haircut tomorrow...

this got me salivating

my parents promised me a laptop for graduation, and dear lord, this is it. the dell studio 14z laptop is my wildest dreams come true. when i saw this, my heart stopped, my jaw dropped, and i realized that if i don't get this laptop, i will forever be incomplete. i haven't been this passionate about anything since i saw that butterfly ring at h&m.

don't laugh at me. i just really, really want this laptop.

SUPER SUMMER CHECKLIST!

because writing in caps is the shit. anyway, here it goes:

• find a job :(
• neverending beach trips
• sf at night
• jklm present exchange
• anything with the group
• buffalo exchange, ashby flea market, and thrift shopping galore
• milk jug booth with kristel
• rock the night
• ummmm...

i thought there would be more...

now that it's over...

i have so many mixed emotions right now, but none are truly sad or disappointed. i've had a good run in high school. there are no regrets.

and after finally reading what people wrote in my yearbook (cause i actually waited until after graduation), i am on such a natural high. i wish i could go back into some yearbooks and change what i wrote, make it more emotional, cause at the time, i had no idea what to say. most of my yearbook writings are rants. i have never realized that i have made such a big influence in people's lives before, and it makes me so happy. because isn't that what people want? to be able to go through life and connect with at least one person? and so it seems i have done that in high school with at least a few, by just being who i am. and it really is nice to have a group of people who will let you be yourself, and they truly appreciate you for it. i swear, down the road, if i ever think about killing myself, i will just turn to my senior yearbook, and i will be happy again. and so to those who have made an influence on my own life, who i truly appreciate for just being yourself, thank you. i know this does not suffice and i am lame at writing in yearbooks. i owe you all a sappy letter. one love.

what i'm tired of right now:

• waking up early
• being broke and jobless
• ugly weather in june
• my hair
• anything cotillion (no offense, kristel)
• all these obligations

what i really wanna do is just throw all of the above into a metaphorical trash can and just enjoy my summer. you know, beach trips, flea markets, late nights hanging out, that carefree summer that we should have after thirteen years of school (counting kindergarten). but really, summer isn't turning out to be anything like that so far. maybe it's still too early? where's that damn fairy godmother when you need her?

almost there...

senior picnic 2009

yesterday was so much fun. sometimes it's hard to believe that i'm so close to the end of high school. it really hasn't hit me yet. maybe it's because i'm expecting to see all of my friends throughout summer. i don't think i'll cry at graduation, because i will get to see everyone afterward. maybe i'll cry at the end of summer. i don't know. for the moment, i don't feel sad at all that i'm leaving high school. i'm glad to finally leave behind the five-hour class schedule, the petty drama, and the teachers who won't let you use the bathroom (seriously, how are you gonna try and tell me when i should pee?). i'm excited to start a new chapter in life. and the way i look at it, it won't be sad at all. because the people who i want to stay apart of my life, i will make an effort to keep them in my life. and if i can't, that's okay, too. because there's always room for new friendships. yeah, that might be a different way of looking at it, but i'm just the type of person that goes with the flow. i think i will be happy wherever life takes me. i'm just happy to go along for the ride.